Sunday, January 16, 2011

Because things are changing.....

I want to start this post with an apology, which I have always heard one should never do in a conversation, this post will not have pictures. SORRY!
Things are changing in my life and with this blog. Good things! I can't go into any details right now, but the first step is explaining why I blog. I started this blog on a whim. When I started I never thought anyone would read it. Honestly I just thought this would be a good way to journal or scrapbook. Scrapbooks are nice to look at, but hard work! I tried I really did! In the end it just wasn't for me. By the time I pulled out all my pictures, paper, paper punches, glue.....etc I was exhausted before I even started! Not one single scrapbook was ever finished. I ended up giving away all my supplies.
When I discovered the blog world I thought hey this will be a good way for me to look back in 30 years and see what I was interested in, and why. Journals really aren't my style either. My handwriting is less than calligraphy. Wish I could say that I have really kept up with this blog, poured my heart and soul into it, showed my true colors.....etc. Sadly in the past I have slipped some. In all admittance its my own fault. Life got busy and the blog hit the back burner. I am doing better though, and this is only the beginning!
Jumping into something isn't a characteristic of mine. I make calculated decisions. Weigh my options and go from there. I've been known to make a few too many pro/con lists in my time. One of my biggest fears is making a rash decision that I will regret and pay dearly for. So being the cautious person I am, I researched blogging before beginning my own. I read all kinds, from people in all parts of the world. What I discovered surprised me. Blogs were the newest things and I didn't know! While at the time (and even more now) I didn't really have anything to blog about, I started anyway. Since the beginning some major changes have taken place. When I started I was in a serious relationship with a guy I thought I was destined to marry. Looking back it wasn't meant to be from day one and I knew it...... but I can be stubborn.
When the relationship ended I thought about deleting all the posts that included him. Then I realized that in 30 years when I look back I am going to want to remember those memories. Well maybe I won't, but I at least want the option to read them. I can't delete those memories from my past, so I might as well keep the posts.
Computers and I are not always friends. We have our ups and downs. At some point in this blogging project of mine I clicked something and deleted almost every comment anyone ever made. So if you are reading this and have commented in the past but wondering why I didn't you know why. I'm sorry! I wasn't ignoring you!
Somewhere along the line I managed to make some great friends. Through the blogs I read, and those who read mine, i've met some really interesting people! Too bad we all live so far apart, because i'm pretty sure we would have some fun girls nights!
Blogging has been a positive experience for me......well for the most part. This blog is public. It's public because I choose for it to be. It's open to comments because I choose for it to be. I enjoy reading comments, BUT they aren't all nice. In the past i've had several nasty comments and emails about some of my pictures. Apparently I have not shown myself in the best light. Let me take a moment to say...........If you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all. With that being said I appreciate comments and encourage them, but I won't publish negative comments. In fact I haven't been publishing any comments. I still read them, so keep sending them!
What you see in these pictures are fun nights with my friends and family. You see me going to clubs, having dinner with the girls, celebrating Birthdays and bachelorette parties......etc. You also see what i'm reading, watching on tv and doing with my family. I'm not a wild party girl. When you see a post with pictures from a club its for a celebration. I don't go to dance clubs every weekend, nor do I want to. In all honesty I get up, go to work, come home, fix dinner, watch a couple of tv shows, get things ready for the next day and go to bed. AND I love it! In fact I look forward to my routine.
Thank you for all your comments about my love life. I really do appreciate that so many of you care. I care too, but I am really happy being single. Ok so there are days when I don't say that. The truth is I have a guy in mind, but things just aren't right yet. That isn't to say that they will ever be, or that we will ever get together. He's "my person" and unless you watch Grey's Anatomy that means nothing to you. It means the world to me. It means that I can (and do) tell him anything and everything. It means that he never sugar coats his advice. It means that he is the person I run to when my world seems to be falling apart around me. And when that feels like what is happening he is the only person that can fix it. I'm not sure if he knows what he means to me, but he really is my person. So while I wait to see what the future holds for me, I am going to enjoy being single. NO that doesn't mean I am going to become a bed hopper, or open my own bed to a different guy nightly. It just means that I am going to have fun.
Because things are changing.............I have written you a short novel. It was necessary, I promise. If for no other reason than for me to look back in 30 years and remember why I started blogging, kept old boyfriend posts, met some great friends, dealt with questionable comments and judgemental photo scrutiny, and why I was ok being single.
I blog for me.....and for you.....but mostly for me!